Mazha vendum..

Oru
mazhakalam kudi varavayi. Sariravum manasum chuttupazhupicha eh vennal kalam eni ormakalil matharamayi marayatte.
Pacha pul methakalile mazhathullikalea thatti theripichu chadinadakunna pacha pulchadikalum, vayal varumbukalil mazhayude varum padi chadithimerkunna thavalakuttanmarum ennu kananilla.

Ormakalilea a kuttikalam.. annathe oro mazhakalum , poriveylathu evidaninno oru kulirkattu vannu kettipunarunathu pole sukamulla oro ormakalanu enn eniku. Achanum ammayum sarkar jolikaranu, athukonduthanea ennea enittea kunjammamar pandea ettaduthu. Angane njan janichu valarnath ente ammayude vettil.

Oru tharavadu enn onnum parayan pattila , pazhe oru tharavandinte ella parvudiyum ullkonda oru vedu. Chuttum entea prayattilpetta orupadu kuttikal. Kuttukara ennathil upari avarellam ente bathukal kudi anu. Ammayude achante sahotharangalum, avarude makalum perakuttikalum. Ella vedukalum onnichu cherthal athu oru tharavadakum, kerala mannil ennu thala uyarthi nilkunna oru tharavadu.

Mazha kalam ayal penea ake rasamanu, muttathum parambilum ayi orupadu mavukal und porathathinu perayum ,champayum. Mazha onnu kuranjal appo odum nilathu chitharivizunna kannimangal perukan. Chilappol onnum vizhilla ,pennea kayil kittumath eduthu eriyum. Eniku ishtam chambakkanu, ethrakittiyalum mathivarila, perakku kuro ullathu kondu korachu buthimuttanu thinnan. Mazhakuduthal aneal puratheku vidilla, pazhe nalla varika chakka undakum pattayathil, appolum kushal.
Edaku chila divasangalil mazha undakilla, appol padatheku pokum. Njaru nadan pakathinu muttolum vellathil cheli niranja kure padangal und njagaku. Cheliyil marinju kalikan thudangiyal penea vakuneram akum nirthan, allengil mazhavaranam, athum allengil balanmavan vannu odikanam. Mazha vannal adyam kure neram, mazhayathu thuklichadum dehathe chalipokanu ath. Enittu chempilayo vazhayilea oke parichu thalayichudi vittilaku odum. Allengil ammuma vazhakuparayum chilappo adikum.

Angane oru padu ormakal. Achanum ammayum aduth illathathil njan orupadu vishamichirnnu. Athu kondu thaneyanu avar vannu vilichappol ethu ellam upazhichu njan poyathu. Alengilum ene kondupoyena...
Ennalum njan ethrayo bhagyavan, ennathe kuttikale kanumbol. Ah ormakal ennum oru mazhayayi enni peyunnu.. .adutha mazhakalathina kathirikunnu..

Waves of mind

It's like waves, in the shore of my mind,
countlessly memories are hiting. I want to stop
them, and feels the calmnes of a empty mind.
But the more tries to I push them away, they
hits back with more, than I can ever take. Yes, I
cannot stop this flow of memories in mind by
force, even if I wish so. Now I found that, by
analysing the thoughts. We stop them from
spreading. But when I rubbs on thought another
take its position.

Urakam varunud..

Ei divasam engane kandupoyi ennu chodichal , 'eniku
uttaramilla'. Orupadu thirakukalilude kadannu poyi, pazhe
thirnju nokumbol oru satharana divasam. Akoshangalum niranja
vidikalilude, ashakal pokunna mansumayi nadannu nigumbol,
kandittum kananathe poya ethrayo kazhchakal.
Avayoke alochikumbol njan oru alpam
sowpnajivi ano ennu thonipokunnu. Ethupole
ethrayodivasangal kadanu pokunnu. Engane oronnu
alochichu irikunathum oru rasamanu. Nammale
thane noki chirikunna, vilayiruthunna chila nimishangal. Adikam
engane irikkan kashiyilla. Samayam vaykunnu sarirathinoppam,
manasum thalarunnu, eni onnu oraganam....

Aval ente pranayam

Jivitham oru nathi pole, cheriya thadasangale marikanannu, valya kunnukale chuttiyum nilakathe ozhukunnu.. Athinidayi., ente collage jivitham oru kuthiozhukku pole thudangi.
Oru puthiya lokam ,orupadu anubavangal ,orupadu suhurthukal. Ah thirakil evidayo vech ariyathe oru mukam ente manasil pathinju.
Adyam oru kavthukam anu eniku thoniyath. Avalku vallatha
oru akarzhakatha.. Pathukke ah kavthukam oru jignjasayayi. Avale patti ellam ariyanam enn oru thonal. Aval ente aro ayathupole oru thonal. Angane njan avale arinju thudangi. Ente hridya midippukalil polum avalude thalam njan arinjum. Ene pranayam enna mathrika jalam adimayakki.
Orupadu samsarikan undayittu oru vakkupolum avodu mindathe njan avale pranayichu, aval entethu mathram anu ennu eniku thoni.

Pazhe ariyum thorum aval enni ninnu akalukayanu, jathi vevastha enna vanmathil njangalkidayi njan uyarnu nilkunnu. Pazhe..Kalam ah mathilukale polikum enn eniku orappundayirinnu.
Enittum ente ishtam njan avalodu paranjilangilum, pazhe avalku athu
ariyam. Ah kannukalil oru kunju nazhathram eniku vendi thilangunath kanama. Enittu njan avalode adukam sramichilla. Njangalkidayil arth irambunna oru kadal ullathu pole enjan bhayakunnu, athu ente njan enna bhavam akam(ego)..
Alengil nazhtapedumo enna bhayamakam. Oru padu ashippichu, snehichu nazhtapedumbol
odakunna vedanayodulla bhayam..
Pazhe onnu eniku orappanu avale
njan snehikkum , eppol ennekalum..